THE END aka afterlife of the american (SW) experience=)

4th day back in Estonia is coming to an end, I am almost getting used to the time difference, the rain and speaking Estonian instead of English:) It feels nice to be home - to sleep in my own bed, cook in my own kitchen, walk my dog on the familiar trails and enjoy life with people who make me feel loved and appreciated.
Today I read the SW blogs and the Newsletter from the bookfield - it made me a little nostalgic, feeling sad and happy at the same time. Mixed emotions, nothing new to me, yet still hard.
Still, everything happens for a reason. I know that if I had not had the bike accident and all the health problems that came with it - I wouldn't have had the chance to travel around Oregon, the lovely dinners wouldn't probably have happened and I wouldn't have a normal tan that I have right now. So all in all it turned up good. It is a great program with awesome people and I am happy I got the experience.
In addition to that, because of all the crap that happened I am here right now. Otherwise I wouldn't have had any summer in Estonia. Now that I returned early, I can spend time with people for who I didn't have enough time for in the past year.
It is good to have high ambitions and thrive to climb as high as possible, but every now and then one has to look around, take it in - cause it might all be gone tomorrow!
Carpe diem:)